Thursday, 12 February 2009

What to do now they're not here?

I spend so much of my time doing things for the girls and they have just left on a long drive to Brisbane and now I don't know what to do with myself. I spend so much of my time wishing for 5 minutes peace and now that I have it the house feels so quiet and empty. Talk about being ungrateful. I miss them already and hope they will be safe on the trip. This is the first time that I have ever been more than 20 minutes from them both and they have not been with either Kevin or myself. And yes, I know that I am being a sook but it is so far to drive and I've been praying that nothing happens to them on the trip. It's not like I don't trust Kevin's dad but these are my babies. This is possibly the last photo of the 4 of us. The next time Kevin is with the girls there will be 5 of us. Not long to go now, 3 and a bit weeks.

Jessica came in to give us a cuddle this morning as she does every morning and just wouldn't let us go. She's too young to understand but she knew that something was happening today. When Hollie came in she too just cuddled and cuddled but she knows that she won't see us for a few days. As I cuddled Jessica this morning I cried as she lent against my shoulder. I couldn't help it. At least I didn't cry in front of the in-laws or as the girls were leaving. Gosh I miss them already.

I now have 3, almost 4, days to do as I please but what is that? I have a heap of scrapping that I'd like to do but I sat at my table just before and couldn't get the urge. I just looked blankly at everything in front of me and didn't know what to do. I guess I will read a book soon try to find the enthusiaism to do some scrapping or some housework.

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